Somewhere Between My Coffee With Nihilism Jones & The Great Fall Apart Pie is David Berman

All My Happiness Is Gone

David Berman

Friends are warmer than gold when you’re old
And keeping them is harder than you might suppose
Lately, I tend to make strangers wherever I go
Some of them were once people I was happy to know

Mounting mileage on the dash
Double darkness falling fast
I keep stressing, pressing on
Way deep down at some substratum
Feels like something really wrong has happened
And I confess, I’m barely hanging on

All my happiness is gone
All my happiness is gone
It’s all gone somewhere beyond
All my happiness is gone

Ten thousand afternoons ago
All my happiness just overflowed
That was life at first and goal to go
Me and you and us and them
And all those people way back when
All our hardships were just yardsticks then, you know
You know

Not the purple hills
It’s not the silver lake
It’s not the snowcloud shadowed interstates
It’s not the icy bike chain rain of Portland, Oregon

Where nothing’s wrong and no one’s asking
But the fear’s so strong it leaves you gasping
No way to last out here like this for long

‘Cause everywhere I go, I know
Everywhere I go, I know

All my happiness is gone
All my happiness is gone
It’s all gone somewhere beyond
All my happiness is gone